‘Brilliant swim Aimee’
‘I’m so proud of you’
‘9th in the world is nothing to be disappointed with’
…. But I was!
All these nice comments you hear from family, friends and supporters are not what you want to hear when all you want to do is hide away and be 100% well and truly gutted with what had just happened.
I went to the World Championships this year with my heart set on a final spot. After finishing 11th in London I didn’t think this goal was too far out of reach, and I just fell short of this. 9th place I thought would be the worst place to finish, and it became a reality. Its only one place off of what I wanted to achieve but still I wasn’t happy.
I finished the race, saw the time and knew that I may have just missed out on a final spot. 4min, 37 seconds was the time I thought may secure me that spot and I finished a time of 4.38.
0.4seconds was what separated me from the top 8 swimmers in the world. No-body remembers who was 9th; rarely people even remember who was in the final, but this year that was my only target.
It’s so hard to put feelings into words when things don’t go your way. Any other swimmer will understand what I’m saying here. You train for 11 months of the year as hard as you possibly can, sacrifice so much, all for just one race that lasts about 5 minutes.
On reflection, my race wasn’t actually that bad. The time I swam at worlds was the quickest time id swam last year, so at least I swam the fastest when I needed to. I just wasn’t quick enough. I even went out in under world record pace, so that’s pretty funny I think to know that isn’t too unrealistic for me to do.
This year I need to be doing even more, trying even harder and making sure that this year I make that giant step in the right direction. That’s the only way I’m going to achieve what I want to in Rio.